I'm So Not Ready To Be a Mom

Monday was my parent's 35th wedding anniversary. There is a part of me that is still shocked and amazed that they've made it that long. Don't get me wrong, my parents love each other very much, but they've endured some rocky times during the 27 years I've known them. So for their anniversary, they left town and went to Portsmouth NH for 4 whole days! This means I spent those 4 whole days caring for my youngest brother Joe (who has Cerebral Palsy) and the rest of the kids who still live at home. For 4 whole days I followed the following routine: 6:45am - wake up to Sophie (the Labradoodle) barking - take her outside to go poopy! 7:00am - crawl back to bed praying for at least another hour of precious sleep! 8:30am - drag my tired self out of bed, turn TV on for Joe and prepare his breakfast, take Sophie out one more time, then let her loose in the house. 9:00am - dress Joe (this includes a diaper change, and let's just say, there were more than enough 14 year old boy sized poops! GROSS!) 9:15am - Feed Joe Breakfast 9:30am - get Joe settled in Living room, with TV on, then clean kitchen. 10:00am - have breakfast 10:30am - Laundry (my own downstairs in the basement) 11:00am - Laundry (my parents' on the first floor) 11:30am - prepare Joe's late morning snack 11:45am - Change Joe's Diaper 12:00pm - Feed Joe his snack 12:15pm - Take Sophie out 12:30pm - Laundry (mine again) 12:45pm - Laundry (my parents') 1:00pm - finally a free moment to watch Days of Our Lives (Don't judge me... there's nothing else on) 2:00pm - start thinking about what to make for dinner, pull frozen meat out of freezer. Maybe get a brother to sit with Joe so I can run to the grocery store 2:30pm - take Sophie out 2:45pm - Change Joe's Diaper 3:00pm - Feed Joe "Lunch" and Meds 3:30pm - Laundry (mine) 4:00pm - Laundry (Parents') 4:30pm - Prepare dinner for me, David and Jeremy (usually their girlfriends too) 5:30pm - Family dinner 6:00pm - clean the kitchen 6:30pm - Take Sophie out 7:00pm - Get Joe ready for bed, Change Diaper, and dress in PJ's 7:30pm - Give Joe dinner and nighttime meds 8:00pm - Clean kitchen (other brothers have made snacks and Joe's dishes need to be washed) 8:15pm - Take Sophie out 8:30pm - Put Joe to Bed 8:45pm - Laundry (mine) 9:00pm - Laundry (Parents') 9:15pm - Watch TV while falling asleep in chair waiting for David to get home so doors can be locked and lights turned out. 9:30pm - give up on David, take Sophie out one more time, leave a note for David to take Sophie out when he gets home, and then to lock up and turn out lights. 9:45pm - crawl into bed exhausted, maybe watch alittle TV to fall asleep. 10:00pm - Out cold 11:30pm - Wake up to David coming in. 12:00am - Finally back to sleep. I am so not cracked up to being a stay at home mom! I was so ready to be home last night it wasn't even funny.